Post by Seth Maxey on Dec 17, 2012 6:36:50 GMT -5
I'm Seth, I'm 14. My starting point of really believing would be 6th grade. I went to church camp I had a moment and when I say moment I mean a second a glimpse of peacefulness selflessness love care for everyone. The next year January my grandpa passed away of Cancer this hurt me the most and I honestly believe it was a test of faith for me I gave up on life on God on everything at 12 years old the day before I planned to commit suicide my sister invited me to a different church camp. I went because I knew there was some hope I never could fully go through with a plan of suicide I knew there was more to life. The first day I faked my faith but Tuesday I broke down behind our dorm… a guy from our church I didn't know came out the back door and walked over just putting his hand on back and started to pray, I mean you really can't continue crying with some guys hand on your back that night I was rewoken(if that's a word) That year as a 13 year old I struggled with keeping my faith… pornography, peer pressure, anything you can get from the Internet as easy as clicking a button…I kept sawing this is the last time this lead all the way to 1 week ago I'm a student pastor I teach little kids; I thought Seth what are you doing your teaching kids when your doing all this are you really doing this again? I planned to stop and it failed the. I just quit I literally quit I couldn't think of teaching the kids I love all 93 of them when I was in the shape of faith yesterday I felt so different it was not my turn to teach the kids but I went over and said hey and told each of them I loved them; they saved me a lot of hurt: and to think they are only 5-10; I'm not writing this because I've been a perfect person for year or so I'm writing this because my God, Our God is mighty to save with his eyes or grace and his will to forgive there is no one like Him! I have 2 close to death situations in my life one my latch was broken on a rollercoaster that went in circles the other I almost fell on a cliff with a height of 200 feet. I ask my self now "How could I go through this and still have not been fully faithful?" My grandma just passed away from a heart surgery she was doing for me and my brother she wanted to travel more and have fun her body could not take the surgery let me tell you her dying from a surgery she was doing for her health and for me and my brother that's a tough cookie right there, but in a way I saw it as her going to see her husband after 2 years of not seeing him…After all this, this is the reason why I'm the Freshman I am, I fear no man except God I respect all man even after the point they disrespect me. I honor my parents in everyway and everyday that I can. They have stood by me all this time. I guess God has a plan for us all and maybe that plan has me as a youth pastor as a teacher as a trash man as a soldier what ever I am it will not stop me from wearing my cross and my bible or I'll die by showing my religion.
Seth Maxey
SAW4437
Seth Maxey
SAW4437
